I'm sorry, but I'm happy.

I've got my phone in hand

Typing out the perfect message

You win, I'm tapping out

Finally learned my lesson.

I've got my plea typed out

Proofread it forty times

In fact it reads like poetry

Even without the rhyme.

It says I love you more now

Than I ever have before

And our distance is too loud

It cannot be ignored.

It says I wish I had more space

To explain all that I've learned

About the pain I carried with me

And all of my wrong turns.

I tried to drive away from us

Anxiety running down me

But the faster I drove

The more we were all around me.

Because we're everywhere I look

When I see things that make me happy

Whether it's mojitos on the beach

Or just two people napping

Whether it's jet skis at the lake

Or just the smell of coffee

Whether it's hiking up a trail

Or beers that taste too hoppy.

All these good memories

Make my cheeks warm

And for a second I'm transported

To a place less war-torn.

But as I hover over this message

I realize it's all lost

If I send this now, there's

Really just one response.

I'm sorry, but I'm happy.

And honestly just confused.

There was a time where I

Was yours, and only yours to lose.

And you lost me...

And you kept it that way.

There was a time where I

Was begging you to stay.

But this isn't that time, and

I don't know why you sent me that.

All I can say now is that

I hope you never write me back.

I'm happy now, and

I can't let you ruin this, too.

I'd say it's different, but it's better. 

I promise I'm over you.

Every day I wait

That response becomes more certain.

I cannot disrupt happiness

So I stay behind the curtain.

I'll keep this skeleton in my closet

Just a little bit longer.

But every day I hear him knocking

Just a little bit stronger.